Just got back from the studio where I recorded "Will You Say It Again?" (see prior post), and this gem: "Rescue Me From Me." This song comes directly from Psalm 73. Interestingly enough it is one of the only songs I've "given up" on and then come back and finished after a 6-8 month hiatus. I had been processing a few of the verses from Psalm 73, particularly the pretty famous ones. Psalm 73:25-26 "Whom have I in heaven but You? And earth has nothing I desire besides You. My heart and my flesh may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." You will definitely see those words come out in the Pre-chorus and Chorus of the song. But, with no other inspiration, I had a simple chorus with nothing else. So, I put the song to rest and didn't do much with it for the better part of a year. Then, my good friend Emily said that she had been reading that Psalm and meditating on it as well. She highlighted some ideas in the first part of the Psalm. The psalmist had been reflecting on life and realizing that the wicked were prospering and, could it be that he, in vain, kept God's commands? How often in our life does it seem like that: we are struggling and evil people (or people who just don't know Jesus) are doing just fine! Are you tempted to believe it isn't worth it? I'll be honest: I've had those thoughts. But, the psalmist doesn't end there. He says, "If I had spoken out like that, I would have betrayed your children. When I tried to understand all of this, it troubled me deeply, until I entered the sanctuary of God, then I understood their final destiny."
Sometimes we need a reality check. I know I do. What we can see in this world is so limited. What we do in this world impacts the next, but we cannot see or know how without God's help. So, this song is about letting go of our thoughts and expectations in order to receive God's perspective. That is how we will stay away from bitterness and discontentment of our present circumstances and embrace the joy in the trials of this life, knowing He is our ever present help. So, may He rescue us from all of our incomplete notions of how this world works and give us a fresh perspective. One where we acknowledge His control and His ever present sustenance of our lives. This all happens when we spend time in His presence and humble ourselves to His will. Hard to do, but I love rocking out to this and hope it encourages your heart as well as mine!
Rescue Me From Me
This is where it begins
Here in Your presence as I enter in eager to understand You
Who am I to think that I deserve answers when I can't even know myself?
You are too kind to give mind to me
My whole life is hung on this truth:
Whom have I in heaven but You?
My heart, my flesh may fail
But You're the strength of my heart
The fire in the dark, Oh
Oh how my thoughts can sway
But You're the Rock cleft for me
On my stormy seas, Oh
And I will cling to You
This is where it can end
Here in Your presence every argument becomes insignificant
Who am I to think that I really know You when I can't comprehend Your grace?
You are too kind to give mind to me
As I search the world for the truth
May my desire become only You
The anger inside; Am I bitter and blind?
Will you rescue me from me?
Will I be defined by my stubborn pride?
Tell me, what do you see in me?
Well, friends...I'm headed to the studio again. This time I get to be there for TWO whole days which means I get to do TWO whole songs! I can't begin to say my excitement. Not only am I excited about hearing the final product, but both songs are packed with some seriously good words and thoughts, thanks to Jesus.
The first of these is a song I have recently titled: "Will You Say It Again?" I wrote it 4 years ago now, but it will probably be the song that echoes the cry of my heart most clearly for my whole life. When faced with big decisions, I long to know where God is leading. (Now, let me admit: I'm not perfect and I don't seek His will as I should in my everyday interactions and conversations. I need improvement there.). But, who doesn't want to know God's will for their life and their big decisions. We all want God to say: "Get this job. Move here. Marry that person, Etc..." He doesn't often to that. But, He does walk with us if we believe. He promises never to forsake us. And, He does sometimes give us the will to choose what to do when both options are equally good. Often times a choice he gives us is not between good or evil (although there are some and we know in this case what is right even if we don't do it), or not between better and best (sometimes He does this too), but often He lets us choose between best and another best. Even though I think this let's us express the unique person God made us to be, I also think that some of those decisions really don't matter to God as much as they matter to us. God is more concerned about how well we love. God is more concerned with the state of our hearts. And yes, this can be reflected in how we approach big decisions, but it is more clearly reflected in our day to day. Because God has a lot more to say in His word about our daily actions and the daily posture of our hearts.
My plea in this song and the general cry of my heart is: "God, do not let me miss Your voice. Where it is to be heard, let me hear it and let me follow it. Learn how to let me listen more and more so that as time goes on I always hear You. Even if it isn't for the answers to the questions I asked but just for the sweet knowledge of who You are." Clearly this was enough for the great characters of the Bible to act in ways that are incredible. Some of them heard the audible voice of God, but others didn't as far as we know.
The bridge of this song was an amazing experience. I was sitting on the bed in my parent's spare room at the time. I couldn't hardly write down the words fast enough as they came to me. It is about an amazing set of characters in the Bible who all do incredible things for God because of their faith. I want to be like them. And, I believe that the words of God (whether audible or not) are the catalyst that sparks faith and faithfulness in us. So, the cry of this bridge is the cry of my heart: "I just want to know what You said to them. Will You say it again?"
Will You Say It Again?
Just like Abraham went when you called him to go
To a land unknown
Just like a fisherman came out of his boatTo answer the call
They didn’t know what You’d bring them through
But they knew it was You
I don’t know what’s ahead
Can I know that You’re leading me?
With no time to reflect
Can I trust that You’re growing me?
Call my name and I’ll carry on no longer afraid
Show me grace when I’m overcome by my lack of faith
Peter asked for the call in the midst of the storm
Just to be sure
Never knew You’d respond with a call just to come
Out on the water
With one foot in the boat and one foot on the waves
He had chosen the Way
I don’t know what You said to them
But a donkey reached Bethlehem
And a people crossed a sea on dry land
Don’t know how he managed it
To outrun that chariot
Takes more than the legs of a man
To sit outside the temple gates
And still possess a healing faith
That rose as he started to dance
To walk into the blazing fire
Not knowing You’d be by their side
I just want to know what you said to them
Will you say it again?
What you said to them
Will you say it again?
My name is complicated. My parents named me Theresa. My friends call me "Pinky." My professional title is "Ms. Lindell." Choose one.